Too Late To Turn Back

In the hopes of falling in love
The arms race of happy endings
We met along the pathway
And ran together for a while

But I stumbled on our journey
Reached out to grab your hand
You looked and me and let me fall
Anxious to reach the end

I sat a while, watching you
Picked myself up and wondered
If in my stumbling I'd revealed
The weaker of us two

You made great time, hit all the stops
I waited impatiently
You never once glanced back to ask
What had become of me

All the while I kept me sights
Set firmly on your race
Willing you to turn around
To have our eyes lock once again

The thing about this race
Is victory is empty if solo
You reached the end and realized this
Had no where else to go

I saw you standing there
Defeated and alone
I took my first steps back on track
Towards the victory of my own

Psalm of Taylor Elaine

Be with me this day, O Lord, that I might have the companionship of Thy sweet spirit.

As I travel down this often lonely path, help me see the way back to Thee. I have wandered off before; lost in the thorns and branches of confusion, tangled in the binding vines of iniquity. But Thou camest to me and pulled my broken spirit out of the dangers of the dark and thick wilderness. Thy loving arms encompassed me and held me safe against the stinging blows of mine enemies. Thou gavest me a new light, refilled my waning oil, and set my feet back on the path I had strayed from. With my spirit rekindled, I walk more surely in Thy ways; searching for truth and seeking Thee in all things. Help me to lead for others, that they might experience the love I feel and know of Thee. Let my testimony be a light in the darkness, a beacon of truth shining through dark clouds.

Give my prayer wings that it may rise into the expanses of heaven and fall on loving ears.

LOVE

What is Love?
Love is an emotional attraction
A battlefield of thoughts and actions
Unspoken magnetic powers
Love is War.

What is Love?
Love is a psychological trick
An invention of society
A happenstance happily-ever-after
Love is Chance.

What is Love?
Love is the fear of being alone
The need for companionship
The terror of living for no one but yourself
Love is Fear.

What is Love?
Love is larger than life
Unpredictable, priceless, and pure
Deeper than the universe itself
Love is Unattainable.

Peeling Paint

Ignorance never was bliss
What I didn't know, what I refused to accept
Hurt me in the end

Everything comes in its own time
Slowly the sands of time cover, hide
My mistakes, my foolishness, my regrets

And among the crystalized stones
New hope is born, fires rekindled
Friendships bandaged, healing
Self awareness replaces self conciousness

Popularity makes way for confidence
Feelings of hatred, anger, disgust
Fade into the background
Their memory faint
Another layer of paint on the wall of life

Soon to be covered with a new color
A new leaf
A second chance

Death

For whosoever tasteth of Death
Has come to know the meaning of Living

It is in the moment of Death
That we realize the gravity of Life

We should not fear Death
For Death strikes Faith
Not Fear
In the hearts of Man

We are not afraid of Death
Only of a Life half lived
Wasted

We do not mourn for those who know Death
We mourn for those who only know Life

In order to defy Death
We must live Life

Confessions

I'm a liar
I've played a trick on myself all these years
I thought I believed
But I don't

There is no such thing as
True Love
It's something that only exists in fairy tales
And happily ever afters
But this is no bedtime story

My broken heart can finally stop beating
It lives on its own time now
Forever pounding
Forever on its own

These tears that cascade down my cheeks
Illuminate the sparkle in my eye
My destiny is for my choosing
My fate my own

Forever marching to a different beat
Forever single
The lies end now

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Suddenly and swiftly it ended
Hurt and confused I stumble
A wave of overwhelming emotion washes over me
I welcome the tears that stream down my face

Unceremoniously they cleanse my sorrow
Purge my insides
Unlock the wall I've built inside
And free my bridled passions

Why is it those you care about
Are the ones who suffer the most?
Why do we allow ourselves to be led on
By someone we'd give the best to?

Not anymore
But not anymore
Passion gives way to indifference
Apathy sets in

Lovers become friends
Suddenly and swiftly